one year gone by....?

"To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving"
What is here today can truly be gone in an instant tomorrow. I have come to know this to be incredibly true in my life. My last journal entry was from a year ago, as I was deeply saddened and heart broken at the loss of my beloved grandmother. There wasn't a person on this earth that loved me so perfectly as did my dear gramma. I wonder where this year has gone, how I could let a whole year slip by without a single blog entry. How pathetic and apathetic really. How about I start doing the things in life that bring me life and bring me joy? That sounds like a novel thought. How delightful it would be to break out of pattern and habit and routine and break into light, creativity, life and joy. To truly wake up each morning and thank God for the opportunity to love again and create some more. Each new day is such a precious gift. We never know when the wheel's will fall off our truck, or our friends will be diagnosed with cancer, or our loved ones will leave never to return again, or we will lose our jobs, or we will say good-bye to friends not knowing when we will see each other again. There is such precious invaluable treasure in each day that we are allowed to live and move and breathe. I have so many dreams in my heart. I am a dreamer. I have come to realize that. Come to accept that as a part of what makes me me. A part of my identity as a child of God. The truth of being a dreamer is that your dreams though incredibly beautiful, will never come to pass unless they are acted upon. A dream without action is rather useless. Beautiful yes, but un-tapped into beauty, at best. Beauty that never reached it's full potential. I am honestly tired of dreaming. I'm ready to get off my butt and put my dreams into motion. I am tired of being lazy. Or feeling lazy. I am too hard on myself sometimes, i know this. There are things in my life that need to change. Being Proactive was a phrase I grew to love from a year ago. I learned so much from so many amazing people in my community about being proactive. About taking the hands that I have been given an putting them to the plow. Life is meant to be lived. I have faced adversity in my 27 years, especially in the last couple years. There are others who have faced adversity that I cannot fathom. What did I create with the adversity I have faced? That is the question I am asking myself. Created to create. Loved to love.